Thursday, February 09, 2006
IM BEING SELFISH
A few minutes ago, there was an old man standing outside my house. he was finding his way to get to my doorstep. he hold a pack of battery and a walking stick.
man: sorry to disturb, can you please help me by donating 2 dollars to buy a battery. im blind and i need help. can you help me? just 2dollars and not more.
me: i dont have money.
man: okay. thank you and may god bless you.
oh mann. i know i have money in my wallet still. why did i lied. i feel so bad. im guilty. its like i have commited a crime. im a criminal. hand cuff me. im evil. why was i so selfish. its only 2dollars.
while he walked away, i know that he was sad. im so young. 2dollars wont bring me anywhere. he may need it more than me. he is so old and he is still finding ways to earn. im so sorry. im totally upset with myself. i dont know how to forgive myself. i made a person real sad. even i cant accept rejection. wonder an old blind man being rejected. and he was rejected by me.
he left the corridor full of sadness and hurt. all thanks to me.i will never forgive myself.what was i thinking.he was so nice to say "may god bless you" what was i really thinking. IM DEPRESSED.
im sorry.
you left my doorstep with sadness and hurt.
im sorry.
for my selfishness.
im sorry.
for not giving you 2bucks.
im sorry for lying.
i feel the pain you go through.
im sorry.
forgive me.
please.
))):
MAYBE im right.
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